IT FINALLY HAPPENED................

Yup, it finally happened. I knew it would sooner or later, just that I was hoping for later. I could feel it coming on but there was nothing I could do but just go with it. Believe me, I fought it and fought it. I had a melt down. Nothing to be ashamed of. As you all know, my life has been in a uproar for the past couple of months. First with Jb fixing to be deployed out, then with the news of a grandbaby, then Christmas, then getting ready for a wedding.
First things first, Jb is being shipped in a few weeks. I have tried and tried to be strong for him. I didn't want him to see how upset I was. So, I put on this act and didn't let anyone see how this was affecting me. Then we get some news. A GRANDBABY!!!! Now, don't get me wrong, I am excited. Very excited but also the reality of getting older. Then Christmas, again, it goes with the stress of being the last one with JB until he returns home 18 months later. Then we was trying to get a wedding together for January 24. Talk about some stress!!!! Not to mention more wrinkles, and more gray hair. Not to even mention trying to get a house built for Kasey and get everything done so they can move in. All this within a 7 week time frame. We survived Christmas, we survived the house building, I survived the wrinkles, but hey, my horses don't care about the wrinkles or the gray hair, they know who I am, anyway. And just when we are trying to put the finish touches on the wedding. BAM, no wedding. Or won't be one until October.
I could feel something going on with my body but I just decided to ignore it. I kept going full speed, hitting the rodeos, and trying to be everywhere at one time. WRONG!!!! The next thing I remember is hitting rock bottom. Just crying, and crying and couldn't stop. I couldn't think and I couldn't eat. WHOA!!!! You know things are bad when this bad mamajomba doesn't eat. I had been 3 days without eating. My body shut down on me. You are probably wondering why I didn't go to a doctor. And here I am with a neice who is a doctor. I have come to conculsion that I'm a real good actress. No one could see the signs. The only one who picked up on something was my mare, Dass, we was turning horrible times at the rodeos. It wasn't because I wasn't pushing her or riding her. She knew I wasn't on the same page as her.
I'm still not back yet, I'm having a real hard time letting go of JB. I don't know how to deal with it. My nerves are shot. But somehow, I will get thru this. I did turn over a new leaf. As you know, my hair reached down to my butty, well, it barely touches my shoulders now. Talk about some curls now.

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