Houston, Mississippi rodeo Feb.09

If you will notice how the horses tied up at gate start acting up, it's cause me and Dass was tearing up some things trying to get in gate. these speed horses have trouble getting in the gate and it usually takes other people on horses poning me in. The announcer sometimes have to tell people to clear the gate when I'm coming in and to have the gate and alleyway cleared when coming out. We don't have any brakes.lol

I'm still alive or so I think I am.........

This is a photo of me, my neice Sam, and her Dad Chris(who is my ex brother-in-law). This was taken the other night at the rodeo at Ashland. Sam rodeos with me and let me tell ya, that lil gal can ride.lol Chris trains horses and has helped me a great deal with Dass and is working now with my bay mare Jazz.
I want to thank each and everyone of you for your prayers and well-wishes. I'm finally getting back on track. Jon Brandon came home Saturday for 30 days and then it's back to where he will be protecting our freedom. He went the other day and got his 'meat tags'. It's his dog tags with all his info tattooed on his rib cage. I'm fixing to get me another one. It's gonna be a cross and I'm having it put on my shoulder. Now don't worry it's not going to be huge, probably more like 2 inches or smaller. I have been wanting something done before JB left out. Jb and me talked about different things for me to get, I wanted his calvary swords but he said what if he changed to something else and there I would be with the swords. So....we decided to do the cross. Faith is what has gotten me this far and faith will continue on carrying me and JB thru this time. There is one thing about my tattoos, they are covered up, and what I wear no one can see them. It's just something personal for me. I was without internet for awhile. I changed from dail-up to DSL. Man, I am loving this new DSL. It doesn't take 30 minutes to download just one picture.lol I'm going to try today to get to your blogs but if time doesn't allow me, I will be there in the morning. I have a rodeo tonight here in my home town. It's our annual PCA rodeo. I'm running that crazy app, and just hoping that she doesn't run up the wall with me on that first barrel. We have been having trouble with her doing that here lately. JB is going to be there to help support me and I'm excited to just be able to hear him hollar when I come thru the gate. When I come thru that gate, alot of times the world just shuts down for me. The only thing I can hear is the beating of my heart and the beating of Dass's heart as they become one. There is only two people that I can hear during that time, It's Chris hollaring kick, kick, kick,......and JB hollaring for his Mama to go. So.....today will find me doing some housework, getting our clothes ready for tonight, getting Dass her bath, loading up and heading to the rodeo. Sam and I will be doing barrels, afterwards it will be time for the bull riding. I won't be able to see my 2 cowboys ride, but I will watch my soldier-cowboy pull the rope and help his brother-cowboy(Brian) get down on his bull and maybe hopefully ride for 8 seconds and bring home a check. Once again, my family is complete, each and everyone of us back at the rodeo, P-town better look out for 'the rodeo beaners' are back in town.

Introducing.........MONKEY TOES......

After we sat and waited all day at the hospital, finally at 4:15 Jen was ready to push. Our younger sister Teisha was going to be in there with Jen but when it got time for the action to start, she changed her mind. I was standing out in the hallway, Jen's door open, and out came Teisha with her coat in one hand and her purse in the other hauling tail out of there. She didn't slack up when she passed me and told me to get in there she couldn't handle it. Weell......I didn't let any grass grow under my feet, I went! AFter 3 pushes the nurses was looking for the doctor. When the doctor came in the room he told Jen to breath thru it and in just a min we would have a baby. I looked up at the t.v. and yup, Cowgirls don't cry was on. Where was I standing, you ask? Now, that's a dumb question, just where do you think I was? Your right, I was down there with all the action. When she came into this world Jen asked me was she okay, I looked at Jen and told her yes and it was Monkey Toes!!!!! I wanted to put my hands on her soo bad but Sam( the big sister) wanted to be the first so Aunie just had to wait. After they got her cleaned up and Jen tended to, I went to the door and got Barry(Jen's hubby(he passes out at the sigh of blood) and Sam. The nurse laid the baby in Sam's arms and that's when my heart busted. I finally got my hands on her and yes, I did whisper in her ear for only her and God to hear. Then I sang Happy Birthday. Why even Jon Brandon was there and he was the next in line to hold her. My lil soldier boy broke down crying for he was soo scared he was going to miss seeing this lil one for he was leaving out two days later.

Oh, you want to know her name and all that other stuff?. Sorry, I have done dubbed her as Monkey Toes but I will tell ya what's on her birth certificate. Let's see....... what is her name............ Oh, Karley Jo a.k.a MONKEY TOES. She weighed in a 7lb 3 oz. Just think how big she would have been if she had made it to the end of March.

Monkey Toes and Mom is doing just great, they came home late Wednesday night and so far making it just fine. I haven't been over to see Monkey Toes for I have had the crud but just as soon as I'm over this, I'm going to get in some rocking time. Yea, I'm anxious to get in some bonding time with Monkey Toes.

OH Monkey Toes, Oh Monkey toes, how I love thee soo..............

Last weekend was a full for me. My sister Jen went to the hospital Saturday morning. She had a kidney infection plus was having labor pains. Her due date wasn't until the last of March but the Dr had told us that we would have a Feb. baby. After sitting at the hospital all that day, Sam(my neice) and I decided to go on to the rodeo. We was only going to be about 20 minutes from the hospital. Jen and I talked about it and she figured it would help Sam to go run. So.....off to the rodeo we go. I ran before Sam and had a good run going until I came upon the 3rd barrel. Yup, we busted it. I knew the moment I dropped my hand we had it hit it. I was trying to pick her shoulder up and push her off it but no good. I knew then that we had a 5 second penality added to our time. I ended up running a 15.5 plus 5. Sam ran a couple of runners behind me. Let me tell ya, that lil gal smoked my tail. I'm so proud of my neice. For her to be only 13, she can ride the hair off a horse. Sam and I kept a check on Jen while we was at the rodeo. Sunday morning rolled around and still no baby. The Dr. told us he wasn't going to stop her labor but he wasn't going to hurry it up either. Then the results came back from her urine test. She had protein in it. The Dr. then told us we would have a baby Monday. We all done alot of praying for Jen and the lil one. We knew that she was going to be a premie. At 5 am Monday morning Jen's labor got started real good. I got to the hospital about 7:30. And then we sat and waited. Waited some more...... and we waited some more...........and then there was some more waiting.................

JUST AN UPDATE...........

As some of you know, my sister Jennifer, is expected her second child just any day now. She is the mother of my neice Sam, that is 13 and rodeos with me. Jennifer has been having some problems and believe me, we all have been taking good care of her and lil Karley Jo(I sure was wanting Coraline). Jen went to the doctor the other day and JoJo(gota have a nickname) is already weighing close to 8 lbs, she had gain 2 lbs in one week. I swear that child is gonna come out in a pair of overalls, with a set of lines in her hand, and a hunk of cornbread in the other. It's only fit that she does for her Dad pulls mules and wears overalls all the time. Just picture Larry the Cable Guy in a pair of overalls and you have my brother-in-law. He gets told all the time that he looks like Larry.lol We have the nursery all ready and bags are packed for JoJo to make her entrance. Everyone knows that when she arrives, I get her and say a prayer in her ear just for her and God to hear and then I sing Happy Birthday to her. Just been something I do with all the little ones that enter in this world. I also write a note to the lil ones and the letter is put up until they turn 18 and that's when they can open the letter and see what it reads.
I want all you to know how much you mean to me. I love you all dearly and not a day goes by that I don't think of you. Things are still rocky for me I have my good days and my bad days. I wish I could say the good out weigh the bad but I can't. I have felt the prayers and the hugs coming from each and every one of you. Words can not explain how much that means to me. I have started a journal where I write everything I'm going thru. I'm keeping that private for I don't want anyone to know the pain I have.
Aunt Jenny, at first I just cried and cried when I cut my hair but I love it now. Go far it!!!! Hey, the only difference between a good hair cut and a bad is a couple of weeks of growth.lol My head actually feels lighter and it looks so much healthier and thicker, like it needed to look thicker. I knew my hair was curly but now, it's beyond curly, it's kinky.lol

IT FINALLY HAPPENED................

Yup, it finally happened. I knew it would sooner or later, just that I was hoping for later. I could feel it coming on but there was nothing I could do but just go with it. Believe me, I fought it and fought it. I had a melt down. Nothing to be ashamed of. As you all know, my life has been in a uproar for the past couple of months. First with Jb fixing to be deployed out, then with the news of a grandbaby, then Christmas, then getting ready for a wedding.
First things first, Jb is being shipped in a few weeks. I have tried and tried to be strong for him. I didn't want him to see how upset I was. So, I put on this act and didn't let anyone see how this was affecting me. Then we get some news. A GRANDBABY!!!! Now, don't get me wrong, I am excited. Very excited but also the reality of getting older. Then Christmas, again, it goes with the stress of being the last one with JB until he returns home 18 months later. Then we was trying to get a wedding together for January 24. Talk about some stress!!!! Not to mention more wrinkles, and more gray hair. Not to even mention trying to get a house built for Kasey and get everything done so they can move in. All this within a 7 week time frame. We survived Christmas, we survived the house building, I survived the wrinkles, but hey, my horses don't care about the wrinkles or the gray hair, they know who I am, anyway. And just when we are trying to put the finish touches on the wedding. BAM, no wedding. Or won't be one until October.
I could feel something going on with my body but I just decided to ignore it. I kept going full speed, hitting the rodeos, and trying to be everywhere at one time. WRONG!!!! The next thing I remember is hitting rock bottom. Just crying, and crying and couldn't stop. I couldn't think and I couldn't eat. WHOA!!!! You know things are bad when this bad mamajomba doesn't eat. I had been 3 days without eating. My body shut down on me. You are probably wondering why I didn't go to a doctor. And here I am with a neice who is a doctor. I have come to conculsion that I'm a real good actress. No one could see the signs. The only one who picked up on something was my mare, Dass, we was turning horrible times at the rodeos. It wasn't because I wasn't pushing her or riding her. She knew I wasn't on the same page as her.
I'm still not back yet, I'm having a real hard time letting go of JB. I don't know how to deal with it. My nerves are shot. But somehow, I will get thru this. I did turn over a new leaf. As you know, my hair reached down to my butty, well, it barely touches my shoulders now. Talk about some curls now.

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